Entry 1:

Today has taken its toll on the old ego... I was happily writing my newest choon on my new program (amg hypersonic 2 xDeee) then i hit a bit of writers block so I thought I'd go and laugh at some of the poorer NG submissions to help me out a bit (yes I thrive off others sorrow, I know its sick, knowing that makes me harder (DON'T take that the wrong way, I meant in my pants) Then I ended up clicking on the "Best submission of all time" currently, i think its by physex, physxxsssx oh hang on...*checks*..... Beat is coming by physysysX. I was anticipating an amazing track as the shockingly good "Chaoz Fantasy" was 4 below... It was actually quite awful (no offense physics-x-iks? but it is so so so not the best track on here)

So I had a raa chuffdies on (for anyone not English, having a raa chuffdies on means a great feeling of happiness) because i was thinking "wow ill be able to write better stuff than this when older, wiser and actually pay for my software".... O.O i didn't mean that, obviously i pay for it, downloading it for free when i could pay sometimes hundreds of pounds for it is just a stupid idea isn't it really. (srsly tho no one leave me a comment about warez being bad, it wont be read, oh yeah ill look at it, but it wont be read) ANYWAY drifted from the point slightly, actually i fucking sprinted from the point. I then thought "i bet all of these song are shit"

No.

oh god no.

Some of those tracks are...

*sigh*

you get my point right? It killed my soul, especially when I find out some of these kids are 14-17 :'(

Ahh well, I 'spose every musician goes through stages like these at some point, but I guess its the ones who keep trying and stay true to the music that will be the musicians of tommorow.

Blog over anyway, ill get about 6 reads of this in my lifetime but you 6 better fucking like it! Or at least leave me a comment... please be my friends, PLEASE!!1